Holly Madison is dishing on life in the Playboy Mansion and with Hugh Hefner in her new book, Down The Rabbit Hole.
The former Playboy model claims that Hefner offered her a Quaalude when they first met and criticized her appearance until her confidence crumbled.
In an excerpt from her memoir Down The Rabbit Hole, Holly claims she was 21-years-old and working as a Hooters waitress at the Las Palmas nightclub in Los Angeles when she met Hefner.
She said he offered her drugs, saying, “Would you like a Quaalude?”
She refused and Hef replied, “Usually, I don’t approve of drugs, but you know, in the ’70s they used to call these pills thigh openers.”
She later became one of Hefner’s seven official girlfriends later that year, starring in the E! reality series The Girls Next Door from 2005 to 2009.
Madison said living in the 29-room mansion was far from glamorous. She said the carpets had been stained with dog urine and all rooms were stocked with ‘trays of Johnson’s Baby Oil, Vaseline and Kleenex’.
Holly writes, “Prior to moving into the Mansion, I’d been a fairly confident person, but it didn’t take long for my self-worth to crumble”.
She claims she was bullied by other Playboy models, who even stole her clothes.
But she said Hugh Hefner was the one to destroy her self-confidence.
Holly had a makeover and cut her hair shorter, with Hugh responding by saying, “You look old, hard and cheap”.
The pretty blonde adds, “Any shred of confidence I found over the last few hours was quickly evaporating”.
She said things really went south when Hef accused her of cheating in 2008 with illusionist Criss Angel.
She said Hugh attempted to make her stay by offering to leave her $3 million in his will, but she left and never saw him again.
After leaving the Playboy mansion, Holly claims the octogenarian continued to pursue her by writing her ‘short, reprimanding’ letters in response to things she’d said in interviews.
Madison said, “There was a creepy vibe to them”.
Last month she revealed that at one point she became so depressed she even thought about ending her own life.
In her memoir she writes, “Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.”
Madison, 35, is now married to Electric Daisy Carnival organizer Pasquale Rotella, 41, and they have a two-year-old daughter named Rainbow.
Holly said of her book, “I’m excited to finally share my story and what I’ve learned from my personal experiences both inside and outside of the Playboy Mansion. I think my stories will surprise people and I’m looking forward to lifting the veil of mystique and clearing up the misconceptions so often associated with my life.”
We’re certain Hef isn’t going to be happy.
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