Dean McDermott no longer wants to share his private life with the world and has decided to step away from his reality show “True Tori”.
The actor spoke to “Access Hollywood” about his decision, revealing it had been difficult having their marital problems broadcast to millions on their Lifetime reality show.
McDermott has starred alongside Tori Spelling and their four children on the show.
He explained his decision to leave the show in an emotional interview with “Access Hollywood Live” on Wednesday morning.
He told Kit Hoover and Billy Bush, “I can’t do this anymore. I can’t keep opening a vein, opening my soul and sharing my feelings and thoughts and demons with the world.”
The 47-year-old said there were five more shows left to air in the season, which has had great ratings with viewers tuning in to watch the fallout from Dean’s cheating.
Dean didn’t say if Tori would continue on another season without Dean on the show.
Dean also discussed his depression and thoughts of suicide, when he was involuntarily sectioned in a psychiatric ward in Los Angeles to stop him from harming himself.
He revealed, “I was driving around in my truck with a loaded 9 mm. I was put on a 5150 at the UCLA psych ward. [My son] Liam had a performance and I didn’t want to miss that performance… I had plans that night to do it.”
He admits he learned from the affair, saying, “I almost lost everything, everything that means anything to me. I don’t want to ever do that again. I don’t ever want to be in that dark place again where I wanted to take my life”.
He is ready to get back to acting, adding, “I went out an auditioned for a [part] on a ‘CSI’ and got it”.
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