Comedian Wayne Brady has opened up about his battle with depression, something that people that have never experienced probably don’t understand.
It will probably shock people that the funnyman deals with debilitating depression, but you’ve probably heard of the “sad clown”.
Wayne Brady, the 42-year-old comedian and television star, has been seen on shows including “Whose Line Is It Anyway?” and “Let’s Make a Deal”.
The Emmy-award winner has decided to talk about his secret mental health battle to ET’s Nischelle Turner.
Brady admits he has secretly battled with depression for years and reveals people are surprised when they hear of his struggle.
He said, “People are like, ‘Wayne Brady’s always happy!’ No I’m not. Because I’m human.”
Brady explains, “Having a bad day is one thing, having a bad week is another, having a bad life… You don’t want to move, you can’t move in the darkness. You’re like, ‘I am just going to sit right here and I want to wallow in this. As much as it hurts, I am going to sit right here because this is what I deserve. This is what I deserve, so I am going to sit here because I am that horrible of a person.'”
He adds, “It starts this cycle where you tell yourself these lies … and those lies become true to you,” he says. “So, you stick to your own truth you’ve set up. ‘If I am this bad, then why should any of this matter?’ I feel at that point, you end up wanting to stop the pain.”
Brady reveals he hit rock bottom last June on his 42nd birthday. He recalled, “I was there by myself, in my bedroom and I had a complete breakdown … Just go ahead and imagine for yourself a brother in his underwear, in his room, you got snot … and that birthday was the beginning of, ‘OK, I’ve got to make a change.'”
He was hit hard by the tragic passing of fellow comedian Robin Williams, who committed suicide after battling depression.
Brady, who knew Williams from the comedian’s appearance on “Whose Line Is It Anyway”, and apparently felt a kinship to the troubled soul.
“When he was on stage [in] full-on Robin mode — and I know this from being blessed enough to work with him — you could not touch that man,” he told ET. “He made all these people feel great. And at the same time, knowing that he had this sense of … what I make up in my mind, this low sense of self-worth, of belonging, of loneliness, of pain that all the money in the world can’t cure, all the accolades and awards, and all the love from people all over the world … all that love could still not stop that man from saying, I am in so much pain.'”
Wayne had a little advice for others with depression.
He stated, “It took me a while to get my stuff together to go, ‘You know what? If you’re not happy, you have to do something about it. Just to admit that you are feeling this way is a huge step. To claim that, to say, ‘Why do I feel dark? Why do I feel unhappy? Let me do something about this.'”
We think it’s really brave for Wayne Brady to speak out. So many people around the world suffer with depression and hopefully his experience will push them to seek help.
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