Model Ruslana Korshunova’s Suicide: Web Posts Give Clues to Her Sadness

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Ruslana Korshunova, Committed Suicide, Web Posts Clues to Depression

Beautiful Russian supermodel, Ruslana Korshunova, committed suicide by jumping from her ninth floor apartment. Postings on a website tell of Ruslana’s search for love and of her sadness.

Ruslana Korshunova, the 20 year old supermodel from Russia, was 5′ 8″ with long flowing hair and green eyes. Such a beautiful girl, but one with much sadness in her heart.

Love meant everything to Ruslana Korshunova.

The supermodel, Korshunova, poured her heart out on a website in the months leading up to her suicide.

Ruslana had written: “Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably,” the beautiful but fragile girl wrote in a poem that concluded: “And never regret anything that made you smile.”

Ruslana also wrote that love “blinds,” “sets souls afire,” and “is always the answer” in emotion-soaked passages posted on a social networking site.

Ruslana Korshunova went back and forth between Russian and English in her heartfelt postings, but love was a central theme no matter the language. “Do not confuse love and desire,” she wrote in Russian in her most recent posting May 30. “Love is the sun, desire – only flash. Desire dazzles, and the sun gives life.”

Ruslana also wrote of sacrifice saying, “Love does not take away from one in order to give to another,” wrote Korshunova, “Love – this is the essence of life. But you will not give your life to another.”

Korshunova’s most telling message came three months ago: “I’m so lost. Will I ever find myself?”

In some postings she seemed angry and in others just sad and confused.

“I’m a bitch. I’m a witch. I don’t care what you say!!!” she wrote March 11. “I know what it is. I know why my other relationships didn’t work out, ’cause I’m unpredictable. Why are you afraid of it?”

In January, Ruslana wrote of heartbreak saying, “It hurts, as if someone took a part of me, tore it out, mercilessly stomped all over and threw it out.

“My dream is to fly. Oh, my rainbow it is too high,” she posted in March.

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4 COMMENTS

  1. This is awfully sad and it’s one of those stories I find myself venturing back to because frankly I have a difficult time believing it was indeed a suicide. I, myself, have had my bouts with debilitating depression to the point that I was very impulsive and yes I too was suicidal…only later did I found out that I had a biological imbalance which thankfully was corrected with medication. Here’s my point, I don’t feel that anyone of us should judge another human being nor joke about suicide because I see it this way, you never know, you may suddenly have an abrupt change in your life that triggers an overwhelming feeling of emotions to the point that you feel so desperate and low you don’t know what to do. Through it all though, what people need to do is to be understanding.

  2. Whether Ruslana Korshunova killed herself or not remains to be seen. Deliberately throwing oneself off a balcony is not generally the method of choice.

    No one really wants to die. People only think of suicide when they feel they don't have any other choice and most do not commit suicide in private where nobody knows. Telling is telling-revealing. Most talk about wanting to die, because they want someone to give them a way out other than death. Most people commit suicide because they're in pain.

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    The teenage years especially are times of emotional transition. There's a lot of having to grow up all at once that takes place. Suddenly, there are more responsibilities. There's high school and the thought of college. When we go to school as teens, there's no longer the sameness of sitting in one classroom with the same kids and the same teacher everyday. Now, we have to race from class to class. Everything is different. And then there's sex and that's all confusing. I mean, not long ago we used to hate the opposite sex or at least we pretended to and now we're not only supposed to be liking them, but maybe or maybe not getting parts of our body invaded by them and all of those other things that seemed so unthinkable when we first learned about the facts of life. Our bodies change. Our minds change. But we are all immature. We don't know how to handle situations. We don't even know how to handle the thoughts that go through our minds. We feel awkward about relationships. We don't know what we feel. But in it all, there is an awful aloneness, no matter how popular we seem to be.

    Most of us can handle it. But some of us, a lot of us, can't. Each of us has felt suicidal at some point in our teens and the ones who don't are liars. We all cry. We each hurt. But most of us have friends that are there for us to help us through those times. Teens do kill themselves. It happens a lot more often than it should. It happens because no one was there with them at the right time to say just the right words. But it's important to talk. It's important to hold and to be held. It's important to cry and let it all out. Things always change. The light at the end of the tunnel isn't always an oncoming train. If you're feeling suicidal, seek someone out. Sleep helps if you're alone. You will feel better afterwards. And if you know a teen who's talking about death, see if you can get his or her parents to help, Counseling is beneficial, but it isn't a cure. Direction is. Give someone a reason to live and death becomes unthinkable. Joke with them. Make them laugh. Make them see something special in themselves.

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