Actor Colin Farrell Was Dying Before He Went To Rehab (Video)

Posted on October 15, 2008

Colin Farrell recently said in an interview with a BBC talk show that he “was dying” before he checked into rehab several years ago. Farrell said he was “fairly drunk and high for 16 years”. Read more on Colin Farrell’s drug problems and rehab below.

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On Jonathan Ross’s BBC talk show, Colin Farrell said of his time after rehab:

“I came back into the world and everything was in a degree of focus that I hadn’t experienced… Desperation will allow you to do incredible things in the name of survival.
“So much of the work that I did I was struggling so hard to keep my shit together. A lot of my energy was going into trying not to have a complete meltdown. By the end of Miami Vice I was just done.

“I had created an environment for myself, a way of living for myself which, on the outside, seemed incredibly gregarious and vivacious.

“I don’t believe I have any chemical predisposition towards depression, but let’s just say I was suffering from a spiritual malady for years and I indulged it.

“To be in pain, if it’s self-perpetuated, can be very sweet at times. You can feel very alive when you’re in pain, and I also know that from another perspective, like when somebody who I love in my life has passed away.

“There is something incredibly internally vivacious about feeling pain or mourning, even if it’s something as egocentric or self-indulgent as mourning for yourself, or pitying yourself.”

Colin Farrell also talked about the release of a sex tape made with former girlfriend Nicole Narain in July 2005. Of course the sex tape hit the internet at dirtycolin.com after falling into the wrong hands. “An expensive 14 minutes, that one… It seemed like a good idea at the time.

“The man in charge said I hope you’ve learned your lesson Mr Farrell and I said ‘absolutely, next time I’ll take the tape with me’.”

He added, “I think I was high.”

Here’s a video of Colin discussing the sex tape and the second one of his drug abuse and rehab: